Sunday, August 31, 2008

in other words

everyone goes out of their mind once in a while and i mean, thats okay right.
things do get shitty, it is very shitty now.
but i realised it's always good once you find a purpose.
its like, a new strength from within,
and it kinda motivates you.
though you do have weird doubts.
life's beautiful the way it is and i shall not blame anyone, will not blame anyone, for anything that comes in the way.
not many believe in miracles,
but i do, and i havent seen it come true,
but at least i've seen the light.
life seems so beautiful.

everyone gets bitchy too once in awhile but its okay.
just a few hours ago, i felt like biting off everyone's head,
but now im fine.
fine because i know that this world obviously doesnt consists of angels only.
i cant help it if people behave the way they are, if people do the things they do.
i know i cant change anything, but the least i could do is to change my perspective.
and life turns beautiful again.

some memories do hurt, even though they're from over tens of years ago.
its not like the stabbing kind of hurt,
but more of like the pins and needles kind of hurt.
some memories do haunt you,
though you keep hoping and hoping that they'll be gone soon.
but as life goes on, you realise its there memories that you've kept for so long,
that makes life beautiful as it is.

now, do you get me?
i dont believe its that hard to listen.
but i think its harder to feel.

tmr's the start of the fasting month and i guess all's good.
i didnt have the oppurtunity to say my apologies to everyone,
but yeah. sorry if i've hurt you in any way. (emotionally or physically. HAH)
but really, thanks for tolerating me (if you're really sincere, that is)
i know its kinda bad when i moodswing.....
i see tmr as a new start, not the end.

-
I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When were grey and old
cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when Im lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
Im loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether Im right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
When I come to call she wont forsake me
Im loving angels instead

When Im feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know Ill always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
Im loving angels instead

a beautiful song indeed to start the fasting month with!
and omg look at the number of views!

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Saturday, August 30, 2008

life's full of shit but its okay

second slower half of the class (:

s3! w some ppl missing though

agn

the past two days must have been the most interesting days for this month i guess.

friday was good because everyone was so high and wacky in school/class we laughed like kids laughing over a clown. i cant rmb when was the last time i laughed that hard until my tummy hurts.
sigh, being a sec4 rocks
haha but i might post up one of the retarded videos here once i get my hands on them. (:
had mini celebration with cikgu outside the staffroom.
haha budget sey. then it was the concert and all of us got super super high, i swear its the effect from the cake.
but otw to al-ameen (?) all of us got rather worn out and stoned throughout the whole journey. was kinda dead during the lunch though its not that bad, but my food was yucky. i even had to mix my fried rice with the naan's butter chicken gravy to actually give it some taste. wth.

then next, me, nat, nad, constance, siti, raihan and amira went to nat's house to watch John Tucker must die! :DD it was so fun/funny, they are the best ppl to watch chick flicks with man. OH. and found out zoey's migrating tmr :0

mum kinda found out bout my tablet.
long story, but the screen cracked. i dont know whether its just me, but the crack seems to be getting bigger and bigger by the day :0
so yeah, the crack's kinda distracting as i type every word here.
but then again, its kinda cool. if you look at it in the artistic way. (:

today's a weirdly weird day.
had takeaway lunch and went to BRADDELL.
there was noone at all, though the other levels should be having their sessions too.
so yay, me and siti thought we were early!
but omg at 2.25 i called rab and she told me everyone's at bedok (but she didnt know and was at braddell too)
thank god abg sat's with us. waited for athirah and aqilah and we got a super fast ride to bedok. so yay to that!

our meeting was kinda retarded hahah laughed alot.
but on the down side, everyone, including the sec1s to sec3s, and also the pioneer bacth, will be joining us for our 'graduation' (cum smth smth launch) and it kinda defeats the purpose and wont be so fun ): the thought of some people really turns me off. SHUDDERS.
so anw, abg sat sent us home (: but i stupidly left my hp adapter cause i used my phone to play the music on the speaker. i feel stupid now becuase i'll be musicless during the whole sept hols (unless i switch on the comp. but no, i'll end up being distracted) D:

okay, everyone feels so slack for the past few days cause it feels as though prelims are over even though we're only halfway through. not satisfied with some paper but overall i guess it wasnt so bad.

next week is puasa week/mugging week and im excited/happy (:
im feeling all out of sorts lately and i dont know why.
im making myself strongly believe that its the stress ):

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

HAPPY SWEET 16TH SITI! :D
hehe happy bday gal! sorry, i really owe you a present D:
after prelims i promise!! :D
(and dedication post up soon okay. heh im too tired today ): )
but wtv it is, me love you long time! (:

im feeling so YE&D*&G#EHYUE today.
really personal rantings all up on lj.
do add me okay (if i know you) (:

i really love this version, its totally different and sweet.
and yes, im ashamed to admit this but i cried listening to this ):

another beautiful cover. the song is really beautiful (:

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6:54 AM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

english and prelims.

i just did an IQ test and i have an IQ of 143.
above average, at least that boosts my confidence for tmr's paper :0
(but in crescent you need to have an IQ of like 170 or smth to be regarded as normal)
do you know that the internet is a very good source for you to improve on your english?

i feel so loser-ish and never felt more like a loser than being this loser. its ironical because i dont really lose since i dont compete much and losers are only for people who dont win. but i still feel all loser-ish for god knows what loser reason. i feel like a loser sitting for loser exams and tests. i feel like a loser trying to be a loser in being a loser. i feel like a loser when i like loser losers. i feel like a loser when i cant get loserly loser things right. and yes, im feeling like a loser saying so many losers in just one short loser paragraph.

i like pretty things just like any other pretty person do. i like pretty butterflies flying prettily in pretty parks. i like pretty flowers and pretty cupcakes with prettily decorated icing on top. i like pretty boys and pretty girls too. but pretty things are not always as pretty as you've had always prettily thought they are. being pretty comes with a pretty price too, if you get what i mean. but luckily im not pretty because being pretty pretty much makes your life seems so pretty. all pretty and no ugly, then life wouldnt be so pretty then, dont you agree?

im tiredly tired of being tired. the tired feeling is very tiring, no? im tired of exams and books. im tired of this tired world, with all the tiring problems they can never seem to solve no matter how tired they are trying to tiredly solve them. im tired of liking you and tiringly tell myself that im tired of everything. everything tires me out every tiringly now and then. im tired of my own tired face. but the most tiring thing of all, is to be tired of this tiring queen.

yeah. im so intellectual. not.
instead of learning new bombastic words, i learnt how to turn simple words into complex sentences (but so not working cause i dont make sense)

i stupidly left all my el resources in sch and i would sincerely like to thank all my friends who had made the effort to scan/photocopy stuff for me, or go through certain stuff with me, so that i can study. thanks, you guys are much loved (:
thats what friends are for <3

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7:06 AM

fond memories

im waiting for sleep to come...........
in random order

our own dikir team! im so proud of us and them (:

ice skating (:

penantiannnnnn (:

i love pbmc alot (:

we sec4s rule :D

bahasssssss! (:

CrezAwards (:

Klas K! :D

beatrice, raihan, nad, siti, me, nat, amira, mayvin, brenda.
racial harmony 08 (:

we went to support our bahas team (:
(haha nurul very cute seh)

i love pbmc JK! :D

taridra whooo (:

we rock the camp :D

graduates tea (:

racial harmony 07
(it doesnt seem like a year ago at all.)

sec1 pbmc phototaking! (:

i never feared death so much. HAHA

MNS :D

hanizahhh! :D
(adlina's look-a-like. lol. sort of.)

angklunggggg :D

3s3 07 (:

dikir :D

the good old angklung (:

ymc bbq 06!

w/ rach&ashley (:

work experience (:

jalan raye babe :D

rename love (:

vivo (:

creztrack. HAHA

negeri 9! (:

camp tun teja :D

gee1 05-06

1g1 05 cheer competition! :D

walkathon. HAHA. (:

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Friday, August 22, 2008

hahah im NOT a minah okay!

(that Constance Lingam just didnt have any better thing to write)

i have these to look forward to:

-YMC

-prelims

-s3 outing next fri :D

-breaking fast with s3 ppl ((:

-class dance

makes my life doesnt seem so bad eh?

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Monday, August 18, 2008

4s3 <3

clockwise:
brenda, asilah, raihan, ryhan, me!, beatrice, constance, ameerah, wing yan, ying tong, nad, nat, amira, aliffah, melainne, devi, diane
:D
had class gathering today, sort of.
at least half of the class went for the lunch though it was very last minute.
ils3vm (:

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7:49 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

just so you know

i dont always do this but i feel freaking horrible tonight.

RULES:
1. Place your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Put the last title of the song as the subject.
4. You must write the song name no matter how silly it sounds.

IF SOMEONE SAY "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY...
take you there- sean kingston
(=awesome)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
beautiful girls- sean kingston
(HAHAH :D)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY OR GIRL?
umbrella(remix)- rihanna feat. chris brown
(caring&loving yo)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
half alive- secondhand serenade
(how true!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
photo- ryan cabrera
(treasure every moment in life!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
maybe- secondhand serenade
(think twice before doing anth?! okay, not.)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
underneath your clothes- shakira
(haha secretive, maybe)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
doesnt really matter- janet jackson
(haha OMG. no, they matter to me)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
no air- jordin sparks feat chris brown
(SCHOOL'S FREAKING SUFFOCATING ME IN EVERY SINGLE DAMN WAY)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
finally- fergie
(...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
menghapus jejakmu- peterpan
(haha so true man. sucker la, im trying to forget you)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
girl-next-door- saving jane
(NO! i wanna be successful (: )

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
the call- backstreet boys
(make the move yo!)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
broken hearts parade- good charlotte
(im sucha disappointment to them ): )

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
like a boy- ciara
(HAHA GIRL POWER MAN. marriage wont take away my freedom and rights!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
i turn to you- christina aguilera
(aww man this is damn sweet<3)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
hate that i love you- rihanna feat ne-yo
(...)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
fall for you- secondhand serenade
(omg.)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
greatest love of all- whitney houston
(HAHA ahemahem)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
just so you know- jesse mccartney
(just so you know...i love each and every one of you guys! :D)

-
terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucuba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hati ku terbelenggu
kucuba untuk lanjutkan hidup

engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat untuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

lepaskan segalanya
lepaskan segalanya

engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat untuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

nananana nananananananana nananana
-

i didnt realise that last line, it made me Laugh Out Loud
LOL

i wont be posting here temporarily
(for many reasons)
anw, my lj needs a lil bit of revival too.
see you there (:

my daddy's leaving for hong kong next week.
how fair can life get?
'life's never fair. if not, i would've been born fair'
-ms vicky
noone to fetch me from madrasah/noone to laugh at the stupid things i do ):

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

when everything in the world goes wrong,
you'll just feel like running away.
you say, look at the bright side?
where is it?
i dont see it.
there's no bright side honey.
is it just my eyes,
or are ~~you~~ we living in denial?

i dont like this place.
im running away to somewhere safer.
you'll know where to find me <3

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11:43 AM

Friday, August 15, 2008

friday was such a weird yet nice day. no elaborations.
but...i managed to get my hotdog prata/prata hotdog (??) after night study :D
anw, during bio, our bio teacher accidentally said 'haemogoblin' instead of 'haemoglobin'
so...this was what siti and i came up with.
emo goblin!

haha its very cute, no? though the emo fringe part is not quite clear.
and also, just to show my friends that indeed i was super dark in sec1!

haha. its not just the lighting okay. see, i was darker last time!
and and, i came to a conclusion:
math makes me hungry ):

plus i think most prolly i'll have to go for detention with aqilah ):
i mean, i get caught for the stupidest things on earth. (thanks to that L person ah.)
besides that, stupid SMRT trains have alwaysssss been late this term.
it doesnt help that they only allowed one excuse letter D: (though i dont freaking care and gave two)
hee but its okay, there's Aqilah and we can spend quality time together :D

ok im off now. the computer makes me dizzy :/

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

blow wind blow

people go on hiatus when exams are coming.
but if you notice, i seem to keep coming here to blog whenever exams are near. ahwells. at least its a nice form of escape.

amira the taitai

the kind of fun we have during bio
(and i just realised not long ago that this picture has a deep meaning to it. you geddit?)

this pic is so...mystical.

raihan the aspiring model (:

i feel really proud watching them perform! :D

chinese girl and japanese mum

i see gorgeous devi :0

if only it is this sunny everyday,
if only the pink flowers bloom everyday,
if only the sky is as beautiful everyday.

KKK! (Kami Kool Kan!)

goooooooooooooo angklung!

my prelims schedule sucks like shit.

25 Aug (mon)
el paper 1
el paper 2

26 Aug (tues)
emath paper 1
lit paper 1

27 aug (wed)
social studies
bio paper 1
csp o level oral

28 Aug (thurs)
amath paper 1
lit paper 2

8 Sep (mon)
amath paper 2
elect history

9 Sep (tues)
emath paper 2

10 Sep (wed)
Chem paper 3
phys,chem paper 1

11 Sep (thurs)
Phys paper 2

12 Sep (fri)
phys, chem prac

15 Sep (mon)
hml paper 1
hml paper 2
bio paper 2

16 Sep (tues)
CSP prelims

its just so stupid how they pushed back my bio paper 2 all the way to the end. which means that technically, i have to study twice for bio. sucks, cause there's twenty one freaking chaps. and even now, im not even half way through my revision for it. SIGHS.
also, the norm mt ppl wont have to come to sch on that day AND even so, everyone will be out rejoicing a little after that while i will still be stuck in school. SIGHSIGH.
its also stupid how our prelims got split up due to sep hols. i mean, cant they like push it back or forward at least?

i cant wait for prelims to be over.
weird, but the thought of o's doesnt bug me as much as the thought of prelims does. ):

you're so fucking special;
i wish i was special

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7:56 AM

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